It was too naive of me to think that things will eventually work out. I half expected that when people, who my mom selflessly (and religiously) served and helped throughout the years, came to know of her current predicament - there will be an outpouring of generosity. I whole heartedly believed that nothing untoward will happen to my mom because of all the good things that she had done in her life.

 All my efforts to secure a loan has failed miserably. I have offerred our house as collateral for the loan and even for sale - still no takers. It is really quite frustrating to be in this situation. I do understand that times are very hard. With this economy, no one will trust you or at least give you a chance. 

I have pinned my hopes on a distant friend who expressed concern and a possible solution. But maybe reality set in and I haven't heard from him since. To date, I am now personally in debt trying to ease the situation and settle minor problems. I estimate that it will take me three years to pay that off with my own meager salary. Considering that my employment status is now on and off - it is the most I can offer.

Just today I learned that a warrant of arrest may be issued against my mother at anytime. This was a result of one of the loans my late brother and her wife  secured without my moms knowledge. We can not even pay for the services of a lawyer and worst to post bail. We are already struggling for our daily living as it is. On top of that is the fear that we may be evicted from our own home before the year ends. 

What my late brother and her wife has snowballed into one gigantic mess. I fear that our family can hold out for so long. I dont know what will happen or what to do next. I have explored everything, even begging for help.

To those who by chance gets to read this, please pray for my mom and our family. May the Lord God give me guidance and patience. And to the generous persons who donated and trusted us....may He shower you and your family with blessings a hundred fold.

This is the saddest Christmas we will ever have.......